I’ve recently quit using my smartphone, cutting down drastically on my time spent on the internet or watching TV. I’ve quit drinking alcohol (since Jan 1), started eating healthy (and vegetarian), have rediscovered my love for people and generally have become a nicer person to be around. In addition, instead of being awake every night, I’m waking up much earlier, resulting in less marijuana use.

“Things have changed. For the better”

How? After researching the subject of consciousness, becoming fascinated and experiencing an eye opener followed by a double mushroom trip (the first of which was detailed in my recently published trip report [1]), things have changed. For the better.

Why this could potentially benefit you (and other people around you)

Being conscious, living in the now, is something unique and shouldn’t be underestimated or ignored. In fact, it might very well be the secret to happiness. In a world dominated by technology and smartphones, we are in a constant state of awareness, blind for what is actually happening in front of our eyes.

This is not in any way a guide, or something that should be seen as an absolute truth. I’m merely sharing my experience, backed up by the research I stumbled upon. This way, I hope to inspire more people to go on their on quest to regain consciousness.


I’ve always been fascinated by psychedelics. Which is why, on this marijuana centered website, there is still a fair share of psychedelic reporting going on. It wasn’t until I was doing more research into DMT [2] and Ayahuasca [3] that consciousness became more of a central piece that I knew could potentially be huge. By then, I had been working on this website for almost 2 years, working pretty much every day starting around noon until deep into the night. I hadn’t done psychedelics in 2 years, having experimented heavily with (psilocybin) truffles [4]  and the occasional LSD trip. At this stage, I realized I had been depressed, unhappy for too long and the more I researched I started to realize what I had done. Through reddit, by reading up on DMT, I stumbled upon this book called “the power of now“[5] and after reading it I had a profound moment of joy, realizing it wasn’t too late. I hadn’t reached bottom however, which I did a couple of weeks later. Luckily, the people I live with came to help and after talking things through, I watched Anima [6], a sort of self-help documentary put together from various little videos.

“Send out positive vibes and they will resonate back to you”

I recovered, and in the following week experienced an eye opener. I hadn’t seen actual consciousness put to work, or hadn’t noticed it until this point. When I noticed how a conscious human being was able to share unconditional love, resulting in happiness like comedian Tim Warner pointed out in this video [7]: “Send out positive vibes and they will resonate back to you”. I realized that had been the thing that was going on. This might sound pretty vague to you, but if you watch the video (or have done a fair share of psychedelics in your lifetime), it becomes a lot clearer.

Not much later, still being “unconscious” and trying to figure out what to do, a friend of mine suggested we’d do psilocybin mushrooms. The trip report of which can be found on the website [1]. It was a heavy trip, which ultimately strengthened my fascination for consciousness.

About a week later, we did another mushroom trip. This time, it were the 7 of us. While the dose was a lot lower (some might call it a social trip), towards the end of the trip when everyone was conscious I noticed something even more beautiful: the shared consciousness. We are one, and we’re all in this together. It’s hard to explain, but it felt like there was this train of thoughts we were all on and it lead to simple, pure, primitive happiness. I had never seen something beautiful as this before and for once didn’t feel as the odd figure that didn’t belong to anything. I felt normal, much closer and more alike as my fellow trippy friends. While everyone has these personal issues, we had a lot more in common than I initially thought.

Afterwards, I started trying new things, having new experiences and started doing with other people instead of sticking to the same thing over and over every day. I started breaking the pattern and like I mentioned in the introduction, I’ve still stuck to those changes and haven’t looked back. It feels like waking up after a coma of 2 years (possibly more) and I have never felt this good before. Now, I’d like to inspire you to do the same.

Experiencing (the expanded) consciousness for the first time

While psychedelics might be something that at first scares you, you have to realize they have been used by humanity for thousands of years, perhaps longer [8]. Psilocybin, the active ingredient in magic mushrooms, is fairly easy to come by as certain kinds are prevalent in the wild [9]. Trips can be quite scary at times, but that’s because you have to overcome something that’s been inside of you and you just have to get over. Research has shown psilocybin can make people kick their (dangerous) drug habits [10] (alcohol, nicotine, cocaine, heroin, etc) and guide terminally ill people to their inevitable death [11]. Simply because you’ll usually exit a trip in a better state of mind than before. This is because psilocybin decreases the blood flow to certain regions of the brain that are being overused by people coping with depression [12], addiction [13], trauma [14] and other mental illnesses [15]. Some of these regions, are known to play a role in in consciousness and the ego. [16]

Psilocybin is highly beneficial in regaining consciousness, if only to make you actually feel what it’s like to be fully conscious.

In part 1 of our LSD guide [17] we delve into the setting and involvement of other people which are essential to a safe and successful trip and while the drug is different, the setting and involvement of other people is still relevant for trips in general. The dosage isn’t that important, but it’s generally a good idea to start of with a smaller dose first and see how it works out for you.

The Mind at Large

The Mind At Large[18] is a concept based on the ideas of Charley Dunbar Broad, further developed by Aldous Huxley. The idea is that psychedelic drugs remove a filter, which would otherwise lead to an overkill of information, resulting in humans not being able to function properly due to not being able to focus. However, as Aldous points out in the Doors of Perception[19], it does not necessarily require psychedelic drugs to access the Mind At Large. Some people are able to access it by meditation.

According to Aldous himself:

“Each person is at each moment capable of remembering all that has ever happened to him and of perceiving everything that is happening everywhere in the universe. The function of the brain and nervous system is to protect us from being overwhelmed and confused by this mass of largely useless and irrelevant knowledge, by shutting out most of what we should otherwise perceive or remember at any moment, and leaving only that very small and special selection which is likely to be practically useful. According to such a theory, each one of us is potentially Mind at Large.”

“This is how one ought to see, how things really are”

In the book, he does not speak about a filter, but more about a valve. Whether or not you “believe” in the concept, it is definitely an interesting concept. It too raises more questions, but also answers some. An example of the Mind At Large at work, was Aldous experience with various objects. While the drug was active, he even became fascinated by his own trousers and the legs of a chair. The most interesting experience however was when he was browsing through an art book at the Worlds Biggest Drug Store. At first he was greeted by a Van Gogh, only later to be even more fascinated by a Vermeer. Aldous kept saying: “This is how one ought to see, how things really are.” Vermeer is described by Aldous as a “mysterious artist, truly gifted with the vision that perceives the Dharma-Body as the hedge of the bottom of the garden, with the talent to render as much of that vision as the limitations of the human capacity permit”. The drug made him understand the works of great artists like Vermeer and Van Gogh.

He also stated: “In the final stage of egolessness there is an ‘obscure knowledge’ that All is in all—that All is actually each. This is as near, I take it, as a finite mind can ever come to ‘perceiving everything that is happening everywhere in the universe.”

Re-entering the now (integration)

After the second trip, I realized I had to integrate back into society. Whenever you are lost in thought, just breathe in deep and feel the air as it flows through your body. Occasionally, I still find myself unconscious or unhappy, but it’s been a lot less than before and I just read these basic guidelines that guide me through. They work for me and might work for you, but you will probably find ones that better suit yourself.

  • If you do something, and it’s out of love, it’s never a bad thing.
  • Happiness is only real when shared.
  • Everything is beautiful

From here on out, it’s important to know your state of mind is directly influenced by your health. When you start seeing your body as a vessel of your conscious mind, you realize how important it is to stay in shape, by eating healthy and exercising. This doesn’t mean you have to hit the gym every day, just moving around and sitting less on your ass every day helps tremendous amounts.

The next bit is from the Power of Now [4], a book I highly recommend picking up. It’s a collection of relevant paragraphs detailing how to live in the now. It has been shamelessly copied and will be removed if necessary. I’m just trying to help other people.

From the Power of Now:

“Being is the eternal, ever-present One Life beyond the myriad forms of life that are subject to birth and death. However, Being is not only beyond but also deep within every form as its innermost invisible and indestructible essence. This means that it is accessible to you now as your own deepest self, your true nature. But don’t seek to grasp it with your mind. Don’t try to understand it. You can know it only when the mind is still. When you are present, when your attention is fully and intensely in the Now, Being can be felt, but it can never be under-stood mentally. To regain awareness of Being and to abide in that state of “feeling-realization” is enlightenment.

The pain that you create now is always some form of nonacceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is. On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity. The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly you are identified with your mind. The mind always seeks to deny the Now and to escape from it. In other words, the more you are identified with your mind, the more you suffer. Or you may put it like this: the more you are able to honor and accept the Now, the more ore you are free of pain, of suffering – and free of the egoic mind.

Why does the mind habitually deny or resist the Now? Because it cannot function and remain in control without time, which is past and future, so it perceives the timeless Now as threatening. Time and mind are in fact inseparable.

“Make the Now the primary focus of your life”

If you no longer want to create pain for yourself and others, if you no longer want to add to the residue of past pain that still lives on in you, then don’t create any more time, or at least no more than is necessary to deal with the practical aspects of your life. How to stop creating time? Realize deeply that the present moment is all you ever have. Make the Now the primary focus of your life. Whereas before you dwelt in time and paid brief visits to the Now, have your dwelling place in the Now and pay brief visits to past and future when required to deal with the practical aspects of your life situation. Always say “yes” to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to something that
already is? What could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say “yes” to life – and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you.

So break the old pattern of present-moment denial and present moment resistance. Make it your practice to withdraw attention from past and future whenever they are not needed. Step out of the time dimension as much as possible in everyday life. If you find it hard to enter the Now directly, start by observing the habitual tendency of your mind to want to escape from the Now. You will observe that the future is usually imagined as either better or worse than the present. If the imagined future is better, it gives you hope or pleasurable anticipation. If it is worse, it creates anxiety. Both are illusory. Through self-observation, more presence comes into your life automatically. The moment you realize you are not present, you are present. Whenever you are able to observe your mind, you are no longer trapped in it. Another factor has come in, something that is not of the mind: the witnessing presence.

Make it a habit to monitor your mental-emotional state through self-observation. “Am I at ease at this moment?” is a good question to ask yourself frequently. Or you can ask: “What’s going on inside me at this moment?” Be at least as interested in what goes on inside you as what happens outside. If you get the inside right, the outside will fall into place.

Primary reality is within, secondary reality without. But don’t answer these questions immediately. Direct your attention inward. Have a look inside yourself. What kind of thoughts is your mind producing? What do you feel? Direct your attention into the body. Is there any tension? Once you detect that there is a low level of unease, the background static, see in what way you are avoiding, resisting, or denying life – by denying the Now. There are many ways in which people unconsciously resist the present moment. I will give you a few examples. With practice, your power of self-observation, of monitoring your inner state, will become sharpened.

Maybe you are being taken advantage of, maybe the activity you are engaged in is tedious, maybe someone close to you is dishonest, irritating, or unconscious, but all this is irrelevant. Whether your thoughts and emotions about this situation are justified or not makes no difference. The fact is that you are resisting what is. You are making the present moment into an enemy. You are creating unhappiness, conflict between the inner and the outer.

“Remember that your perception of the world is a reflection of your state of consciousness”

Remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally. If you want to take responsibility for your life, you must choose one of those three options, and you must choose now. Then accept the consequences. No excuses. No negativity. No psychic pollution. Keep your inner space clear. If you take any action – leaving or changing your situation – drop the negativity first, if at all possible. Action arising out of insight into what is required is more effective than action arising out of negativity. Any action is often better than no action, especially if you have been stuck in an unhappy situation for a long time. If it is a mistake, at least you learn something, in which case it’s no longer a mistake. If you remain stuck, you learn nothing. Is fear preventing you from taking action? Acknowledge the fear, watch it, take your attention into it, be fully present with it. Doing so cuts the link between the fear and your thinking. Don’t let the fear rise up into your mind. Use the power of the Now. Fear cannot prevail against it. If there is truly nothing that you can do to change your here and now, and you can’t remove yourself from the situation, then accept your here and now totally by dropping all inner resistance. The false, unhappy self that loves feeling miserable, resentful, or sorry for itself can then no longer survive. This is called surrender. Surrender is not weakness. There is great strength in it. Only a surrendered person has spiritual power. Through surrender, you will be free internally of the situation. You may then find that the situation changes without any effort on your part. In any case, you are free.

Remember that your perception of the world is a reflection of your state of consciousness. You are not separate from it, and there is no objective world out there. Every moment, your consciousness creates the world that you inhabit.

Nothing is what it seems to be. The world that you create and see through the egoic mind may seem a very imperfect place, even a vale of tears. But whatever you perceive is only a kind of symbol, like an image in a dream. It is how your consciousness interprets and inter-acts with the molecular energy dance of the universe. This energy is the raw material of so-called physical reality. You see it in terms of bodies and birth and death, or as a struggle for survival. An infinite number of completely different interpretations, completely different worlds, is possible and, in fact, exists – all depending on the perceiving consciousness. Every being is a focal point of consciousness, and every such focal point creates its own world, although all those worlds are interconnected. There is a human world, an ant world, a dolphin world, and so on. There are countless beings whose consciousness frequency is so different from yours that you are probably unaware of their existence, as they are of yours. Highly conscious beings who are aware of their connectedness with the Source and with each other would inhabit a world that to you would appear as a heavenly realm – and yet all worlds are ultimately one.”

Living in the now

If you are one of those people who work 5-7 days a week, comes home, eats, watches tv, makes love (or not) and goes to bed, you might not be conscious. An easily manipulative sleeper (or the “real” stoned part of the society). It’s time to break that pattern.

Technology plays a huge role in this. Cutting down on your amount spent on the internet and watching screens in general, helps a lot in your quest to regain consciousness.

A study [20] only released last year shows that when heavy Internet users go offline, they undergo withdrawal symptoms similar to those experienced by drug users.

In a press release [21], Professor Phil Reed, who was involved in the study and is based at Swansea University’s College of Human and Health Sciences, wrote:


“Although we do not know exactly what Internet addiction is, our results show that around half of the young people we studied spend so much time on the net that it has negative consequences for the rest of their lives.”

“These initial results, and related studies of brain function, suggest that there are some nasty surprises lurking on the net for people’s wellbeing.”


So reconnect with people in your environment, instead of talking with people across the globe through the internet, connect with people that are actually physically there.

Final Words

Go out, experience new things. Live your life as if there’s no tomorrow. Live in the moment, the present, or the now however you want to call it. Put less emphasis on the past and worry less about the future. Instead, open your eyes and see what’s happening right in front of you!

Click through for the follow up article “You Might Be Asleep And It’s Time to Wake up”

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